Life & Mom Guilt

I don't know.  Maybe it has something to do with turning 30.  Well, that and that we've had friends/aquaintances/family go through hard times lately.  Life is so short.  I don't use every moment how I would like to, but I get so caught up in the day to day monotony (spell?) of being a mom to 2 boys under 2 that I lose the concept of using every moment.  Of not getting frustrated with a non-sleeping 22 month old.  Of not getting frustrated with a newborn that wakes up to snack every hour all.  night.  long. 

So then when I think of just the people I know that have experienced death, sickness and the evils of this world, I have EXTREME mom guilt when I do lose it.  I know I shouldn't.  Well, I think that anyway, but I do anyways.  Just venting......